i feel like all i do is try to please everyone, besides myself. and unfortunatley, the people i try to please the most, see right through it. i tell myself to just give up so it can be their turn to try hard, but then i feel like i’m being mean, or they are mad at me. i sike myself out over nothing, it’s quite ridiculous. and i’ve learned it hurts, more than it helps. so maybe one day, i’ll stop worrying so much.
i feel like everything i do is wrong, everything i say is wrong and everything i feel is wrong. i’m constantly blaming myself for things that don’t even invovle me. it makes no sense, but i do it anyway. i hate doing this to myself and i just want to be more confident and want to be able to stand up for myself and get the courage to say what i feel, because 99% of the time i don’t say how i feel because i don’t really think it matters to other people. also, people don’t expect me to be mad or sad, but i’m only human. i get sad,stressed,mad and hurt just like everyone else and that’s my problem, i don’t know how to deal with that, or anything invovling conflict. i hate being in fights or being mad at people and my world ends when someone is mad at me becasue that means i did something wrong and i hate doing something wrong,because then i feel like i hurt someone else.
okay so everyone always ask me why i’m such a big fan of miley cyrus. it’s not just because i like her music it’s because she actually tries to be a teenager, unlike all the rest of the teenage celebrities. she doesn’t care what people say, she messes up and does stupid things, but that’s how she learns. i guess what i’m trying to say is that even though some stuff she does isn’t something to follow, she always follows her heart and doesn’t let some stupid rumor or magizine headline stop her from trying to live a teenage life. so, that in it’s self, is something to follow because a lot of people care to much about what other people think, but not her. i think i’m going to try to be like that just do what i want to do and not worry about what anyone else has to say.(: